Where then are you going?

Where then are you going? Yaa Ayesha Zafar!

Tomorrow is my last official class EVER at CSU for undergrad!! My last seminar!!!! This past semester has been extremely overwhelming. At times I’ve felt as if I was riding this crazy emotional roller coaster, so unpredictable, full of strange turns and blind spots. I’ve never been soooo intuned with my emotions, crying at every flower blooming, every tree falling or my fourth graders hugging me! Even seeing the familiar Janitor’s face that I have seen for 4 and half years made me tear up today. I’ll miss my talks with him!!!
I’ve enjoyed my time at Cleveland State so much that I am utterly at loss of words. Granted I am usually at loss of words but this beautiful part of my life has been just amazing! Even though I had it all planned out, I was going to room with 2 of my good friends, I would cook and ola would clean and suzie would do the laundry, we would have a cat named Zaytuna and one named MYNA, KSU seemed soo nice when we were younger!!! but you plot and plan and Allah(SWT) is the Best of Planners. Tomorrow inshaAllah, when I walk through the campus, it will be a sweet-sour walk, it’s a place where I grew so far the most spiritually in my 21 years (almost 22.. eeeeee on my Graduation, double the blessings, May 14th baby). Where I learned who I truly was and what my purpose in life is for now at least ;P, where I met people that were sooo pious that you wanted the earth to swallow you after talking to them and souls that were so lost that u shuddered as u saw them regress. It’s a place where I saw the most diversity in life, I’ve never felt so blackistani in my life :)! I am not sure if I learned a lot about my Major perhaps because I hardly ever opened a book, I was too busy planning MSA events or ruining them I must say ;P. Ahh MSA has given me soooo much and unfortunately I’ve not even given it an ounce of appreciation!I learned more about the underground history of Public schooling by my buddy John Taylor Gatto than any of my clueless professors.
At this point I am not too sure what I want to do next, nope I have not applied to any grad schools and I reallllly do want to study abroad inshaAllah. Sigh I am not sure if I’ll be in Cleveland next year, heck I am not even sure if I will be teaching but Allahu Alam.. God knows best.. I shall wait and see where my naseeb takes me.. The Pen has been lifted and the Ink has been dried. I must await for what lies in the special box named life for me… Sure I think about it everyday, however,can’t help but smile, I am just soooo ready for another chapter in my life to begin inshaAllah :)
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Cleveland Sister Mafia style! This semester I’ve truly EEEEEed out… Oh yeshh I maybe going to Pakiland this summer inshaAllah, and the plan is to go somewhere else as well but that’s a secret ;P Only a few are allowed to know! And *cough* no it’s not Australia (Even though we know for a fact that Colors of Islam lives there) or Ireland, I must bounce across them as well but we shall see what rents have planned!

Alhamdullilah, yup it’s a blue tassel and a blue hijab :) :) :)….. I am soo almost done! Alhamdullilah
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